did you ever stop wondering?

Light leisurely creeps out of the horizon
coloring the scene with green, yellow and orange.

The sky beams with shades of blue and indigo
as the hovering clouds watch the fields below.

A symphony of birds chirping embraces the silence
unraveling the beauty of a morning.

colors bend
as the light plays around
the beauty which
the darkness surrounds

I can’t remember when exactly
you came into my life.
All i know is you’ve grown to be a big part of me
and everything feels so right.

All the while, I’ve never really expected
that we’d someday be happy together.
All I know is you’ve made me learn
how to become a person, so much better.

Magnificent indeed is the ultimate being.
Sometimes it really makes me wonder
how our lives can be utterly odd and surprising.
At times we’re up, at times we’re under.

All I know is I’ve learned
to love everything about you
and I’m eternally grateful
that you’ve grown to love me, too.

I can’t see myself anywhere in the future.
I’m lost in the monotony of the present.

Seeking for something new,
something better,
a fresh gust of wind.

I want to grasp and nibble the fullness of life,
not the lingering taste of emptiness within.

Why do things not go my way?
Why can I not have what I want when I want?

Life stings in every way.
With every breath I hurt,
every move I shiver.

It’s cold outside but i feel it more inside.

at the simplest words i say you laugh
even when i’m not trying to make you
on things you’re always asking for my opinion
you always ask the most interesting questions

without much effort you always bring out
what i really think, who i really am
with you, i’ve always upheld my sincerity
you’ve helped me embrace my reality

i make this attempt to tell you that
you’re something more than what you think you are
because i think that you totally deserve
to know and to believe how wonderful you truly are

Everyday, I always think of you. Do you, too?
My head swells with memories of you.
But do thoughts of me even pass your mind?
Would it even occur to you to wonder if I’m alive?

Two hundred and fifty kilometers apart
yet we’re aware what happens in both our lives.
We share messages of when, what and where.
But always leaving out the why and how.

When there’s a great distance between us
it seems that our minds are connecting.
When we’re near each other in a crowd
it’s as if we’ve never exchanged thoughts.

If it’s just the two of us in the same room
would we just stare at each others’ eyes,
never utter a single word while waiting…
just waiting.. for something to happen?

everyday, i wake up into the sun, scorching
always moping around my routinary life
for anything different i’m searching
trying to discern what i’m looking for

one day, you woke me up from my slumber
giving life to my empty quintessence
your words no matter how simple
animates my insipid existence

now, for your presence i wake up longing
so similar yet so different we seem
my heart longs to feel the wholeness of your being
you’ve rapt my soul supposedly invincible

your lips started to move
as you began your song
your voice broke into the silence
shattering the air’s idleness

you created a melody so powerful
breaking into my fatigued soul
warming my bitter heart
embracing my much jaded ears

I opened myself to the world
for a moment there .. I felt free

your voice sounded familiar
even if i heard it just now
the sound of it is so endearing
like a caring mother
hushing her crying child

i continue to ask questions
as they pop out from my mind
just so you can continually
enchant me with the melody of
your harmonious selection of words

i pause to hear and enjoy
the music that you create
with your every giggle and laugh
reminding me of how it really is
to be genuinely happy like a child

our wonderful exchange of words
just had to end at an instant
but still i hear your voice
resonating inside my head
like a wonderfully crafted song

i hear whispers constantly
“happiness spoils into emptiness”
getting louder each day
deafening my mind to life’s beauty

patience has eluded me
as i try to shut these voices up
i feel as if everything that’s sweet
will eventually end up so bitter

when will it all stop?
when will i get to hear again
life’s beautiful arias?
when will i find inner freedom?