did you ever stop wondering?

tila parang narinig ko na ang tinig mo
kahit ngayon pa lang dumapo sa aking tainga
ang tunog nito’y nakapagpapaamo
tulad ng paghehele ng isang ina
sa kanyang anak na umiiyak

tuloy tuloy ako sa pagtatanong
kung anumang lumabas sa kukute ko
para lamang maipagpatuloy
ang pagkabighani ko sa himig
ng iyong mga piling salitang pinagtugma

napapatigil ako upang malasap
ang musikang linilikha
ng iyong bawat tawa at halakhak
nagpapaalala sa akin kung paano
maging tunay na masayang parang bata

sa isang iglap biglang natapos
ang ating pagpapalitan ng mga salita
ngunit naririnig ko pa rin ang tinig mo
tulad ng isang awiting obra
umaalingawngaw sa aking isipan

your voice sounded familiar
even if i heard it just now
the sound of it is so endearing
like a caring mother
hushing her crying child

i continue to ask questions
as they pop out from my mind
just so you can continually
enchant me with the melody of
your harmonious selection of words

i pause to hear and enjoy
the music that you create
with your every giggle and laugh
reminding me of how it really is
to be genuinely happy like a child

our wonderful exchange of words
just had to end at an instant
but still i hear your voice
resonating inside my head
like a wonderfully crafted song

by tuesday, it’s gonna be three weeks since we really talked.

all i can remember was that before that tuesday everything was well. i was happy and i thought you were, too.

i don’t know what has happened and what is happening. you seem to be so cold to me now.

is it me? did i do something wrong? did i say something to make you do this to me?

by tuesday, it’s gonna be three weeks since you started to drift away.

i hear whispers constantly
“happiness spoils into emptiness”
getting louder each day
deafening my mind to life’s beauty

patience has eluded me
as i try to shut these voices up
i feel as if everything that’s sweet
will eventually end up so bitter

when will it all stop?
when will i get to hear again
life’s beautiful arias?
when will i find inner freedom?